The rantings of many.

I'm feeling more vulnerable with each passing day. Less sure of myself and less in control. More scared of the world around me and the people that inhabit it.

Except for one person. That one person who leaned on me and allowed me control of her life and existence... now I'm entrusting her with the same, as I give her the control.

She who is mine... I am now hers. Where once I was content to be in control, now I feel more content in being controlled - but only by one.

Only by Claire.

Yeah... still alive. Can't do it, something very important's waiting for me in the UK. Actually... someone... :P

Anyway. Night shifts the rest of the week, YAY. No more having to get up at the ungodly hour of 8 in the morning. Actually having time to work on what needs doing, including getting the car working and legal. Fuck it. I've waited this long for the namechange, I can prolly wait longer. That doesn't mean I'm dressing like a guy to hop the plane, though. They want that, they can fuck themselves hard and I'll just take a sodding rowboat across the Atlantic or something.

I mean it.

I WILL NOT OBSCURE MY IDENTITY JUST TO BOARD A FUCKING PLANE. That shit is fucking obscene, it needs to end. It needs to end now. I'm sick and tired of all the bullshit I deal with and face ahead just because the way I appear doesn't match a meaningless name and gender designation. I am who I am, others like me are who they are, and paranoia can no longer be an accepted excuse for fucking us over and humiliating us on an hourly basis. I know what some will say. "Oooh, the terrorists, they'll get us! FEAR THEM AND OBEY US!" *rolls eyes* Maybe if this country wasn't run by a bunch of brainless, closed-minded, bigoted warmongers, they wouldn't give a fuck! Seriously, it's got to end. Not tomorrow, not someday, it's got to all fucking end NOW. All the bullshit needs to end, the closed-mindedness, the humiliating bullshit we have to go through, the paranoia, EVERYTHING.

I speak this as a human being. Now fucking start TREATING me like one. I also speak this as a transgirl who is sick and tired of getting shit on at every turn.